我不甘心。 i am reconciled

我不甘心，为什么我没有放掉这感情。
我不甘心，为什么我自己不能跟你同年？
我不甘心，为什么你可以这么容易放下，而我不能？
我不甘心，为什么你狠心欺骗我？
我不甘心，为什么我可以笨到我完全的相信你的话？
我不甘心，为什么你画心在我的手然后放在我的心？不久就跟人跑了。

我的心，已经恨自己为什会真的笨到这种地步？
宁愿自己傻，好让你开心。　
好让自己省钱。就可以带你去台湾和你一起。结果自己病倒了。你的微笑就是我的良药？我满足了。
我宁愿不开心的事别告诉你，不要让你但心。我的任务就是让你开心
我也会想在你的立场想，一路来都非常的支持你的跳舞的梦想。我不在你的身边好让你暂时的独立。过后你出来我会一心一意的照顾你～　

不过这些已经不在是承诺了。而是骗到我自己输给了你和自己。　
你开心了吧，我就好好尝这被骗和背叛的滋味了。　你也不需要伤心，你已经是赢家了～

哭吧。我这笨人～　

I reconciled ,Why i can't let it go for this our relationship ?
I reconciled, why i can't be same age with you ?
I reconciled,Why you can easily put down everything but i can't ?
I reconciled,why you so heartless lie to me ?
I reconciled,Why i am fool can trust you everything ?
I reconciled,why you draw a heart and put in my heart, then you just with another man  ?? the heart is not belong to me ? 

my hate myself why i can fool like shit ? 
i rather to make myself fool let you happy all the second .
save money ,can bring you go Taiwan together .in the end , sick come to me . you're smile is my cure , i very easy to satisfy .
I rather don't tell about my sadness , don't make you worry . that's the mission i promise myself let you happy .

i always think of your side . always support what you do to good for yourself . i just temporary not beside you is because let you more how to independent . after you come out . i will full of my heart to take care of you ... 

but those this wisher is becoming shattered already . i already lose ..
you're happy all the moment , i just been taste been lie and betray this moment . you not been able to sad. because you're already winner ..

just CRY bitch ..me ~ 

快樂與幸福那麽相像???

快樂與幸福那麽相像

但是快樂就會幸福嗎?

或是幸福就會快樂嗎?

有的人，她快樂，但是她在一個不會幸福的關係裡快樂

有的人，她幸福，但是她幸福的關係裡卻有著不快樂的因子

有的人，他快樂，但是卻是提心吊膽的快樂

有的人，他幸福，但是卻充滿愧疚感著幸福

快樂與幸福那麽相像

但是快樂就會幸福嗎?

或是幸福就會快樂嗎?

這個答案

每個人都會不一樣

Tears i shed without anyone seeing

在没有你的日子，感觉日子过得好浪费？
晚上很夜才睡着， 突然梦到你我又哭了？
一个人驾车，每一次望着那前座你的笑容？
晚上里， 都是寂寞和孤单陪我。
电话已经没在响了，就说明不需要再当情人了。
你已经在也不需要我的爱了，就当做我是你的第一爱情功课。
学完了，就不再用了。 我就当我没有利用了。
照片是否丢了？ 还是藏在你的心了？
电话是否换了我的名字？
你在光，我在暗
你开心，我沉默
你爱他，我不能爱你，
你伤心，我心疼
在我多么挽回你的心， 你已经有人踏入你的内心。
我已经在很努力了，你看不出了。
不是我变， 而是你变的不在是你了。
不知道你还会要我吗？ 我能做的是等吧，
等你。思念你，

还爱着你的傻瓜吧~

Way back to love

When i first time to ask you a romantic request at 20/5/09 that night, i asked you will you be a girlfriend ? your answer is yes !! that time i very happy to hold your hand and said thanks you ..but now in the 2013 you broke up with me .. how sad ... our love ,happy, believe, promise totally shattered . i always asked myself , is that i can't give you all i had just give you all. maybe Yes, first problem -love distance is the most hardest challenge .i believe that you're still love me so i also be believe that myself i still more love you . i must said Thank God give me such wonderful , beauty , kind, delight girl . it show me i have a great girlfriend so i also want be your awesome boyfriend .In KL, everyday waiting you finish school, i just text to you , because i miss you . i worry that you're not eat enough , scare you tired , and scare that you give other boy to bully or what ? the most i scare is that you go with other boy i don't know it .. i just still love you only .

  you're mine
you're the first i hug you so tight because i want you to belong to me  .. i kissed you is how i love you to prove you that i love you so much. i cry for you is because i need you be my side . but i know for far distance love is very hard. so i try to be strong . when the the day come i will use my full 100% to give you as much as you want . you're the first , you're the prefect, you're the make me smile to the life everyday ..

But now i don't know why so suddenly why you're change it ??????????? just what you told me is you want focus on study that don't want any relationship and 3 years will come back to me ??is that give me hope or just a joke? i still remember i gave your our photo memories and you still drawing a warm heart in my hand ... i can feel you're still love me .. but it just now can be friend ...i know that . i just want to prove it is how i love you and waiting you so so much . after 5 weeks you have already new boyfriend .. you know that the promise break up is for me totally is so misery ... i was told myself why you have to do this for me .? i mean that we had already promise is can't be hold it ?? why??? i very deep hurt for myself ... just tell my why ?? is that promise you just make a joke for me then you go with another boy already ? you want bad ending for me .. not you ... i just totally hurt.. i can feel my life just blackout all the day... everyday no eat . sleep keep cry and considering hurt myself ...

Just in mind i want to hate you but.. it was totally i can't do it .. it too much love you .. God told us Love is forgiveness.. i think i want forgive myself or you ?? i just totally upset. i not that to hate you ... is just pity you .. i think you have a couple life with your new boyfriend . me ? just get to self fall down and get up again and again.. i wish understand you can feel i still love you .. just you don't love me any more because one word for me .. No more kind of couple feel .. i know that suck reason but just one words can kill my whole life . i just want you understand break up must tell the truth .. don't make the end is just suck ending . you just left the pain to me not you ....

I still love you ....Janice ... wish you understand that .. and i wish you have a boyfriend and girlfriend please must very take care on her not just leave her alone .... really love you all

   

coming back for writing my life story

hello~ Everyone just coming back for the blogspot .. is quite 3 years didn't open it .. so suddenly want to write something . so please stay tune my blogspot if you interest ~haha love you  guys and girl

(surpise)Memory ~

Well this will very longer times dint write blog haha cause lazy =.= in 17.1.2009 at nite 7.30pm i went to church but i too tried ready leh so sleepy so when i go down was knocked the door dint see my thumb finger near by the car foucs 70% close the Super Heavy door (BMW) BOOM! .Is a very good evening waked up ~ so my thumb was very big injured . the blood inside getting bleeding and i no crying .. i laughing .. i so crazy y i dont crying .. maybe pain until change another emotion (crazy) so getting more blood i aslo scared it... just very pain .. No like u little pain is a like something got eat the meat keeping pain . and cant sleep . pain in my hearts .Afthers next week .. i plying dota with ah Saw waiting for the loading game.at the same time i saw my thumb is a black .. at that nite i see my nail looked very softed then i just move a bit. KAK! my nail sunddely broke ready i was shock! but still no take all out the nail.. the blood splash my keyboard n wall. so i watch carefull n full Power! to pull out my nail.. then the nail was take out .. my mind is confused dont know how do i go washed my thumb ..WAlau eh... put water more pain .. i tell some friend they try dont say ready cause they all can feel the thumb pain in self.Well this my frist time to use brave to take out my nail.. haha know that feel is pain n suffer!

Finally i pass the undang-undang

WOOHOOOo~ Oh yea i did it i really pass rdy wakakak now can drive the motor and car ready .hehe well that was very luckly one i correct the 42 only XD this must thx GOD !! GOD always beside me ~ and more give me lesson in that i read the undang .
1.Dont given up
2.Study hard
Well this is i failed many time ready like 12 failed Walau oh... i know some guys will laugh for me or wat but i dont care just dont given up only that the one way can go . but i finally pass ready haha that feel happy is very wondeful XD so like the SPM must more getting study hard ! and now need must pray n read bible to be a good boy XD so very thx you JESUS n my family they aslo support me XD so i very thank full~