Way back to love

When i first time to ask you a romantic request at 20/5/09 that night, i asked you will you be a girlfriend ? your answer is yes !! that time i very happy to hold your hand and said thanks you ..but now in the 2013 you broke up with me .. how sad ... our love ,happy, believe, promise totally shattered . i always asked myself , is that i can't give you all i had just give you all. maybe Yes, first problem -love distance is the most hardest challenge .i believe that you're still love me so i also be believe that myself i still more love you . i must said Thank God give me such wonderful , beauty , kind, delight girl . it show me i have a great girlfriend so i also want be your awesome boyfriend .In KL, everyday waiting you finish school, i just text to you , because i miss you . i worry that you're not eat enough , scare you tired , and scare that you give other boy to bully or what ? the most i scare is that you go with other boy i don't know it .. i just still love you only .

  you're mine
you're the first i hug you so tight because i want you to belong to me  .. i kissed you is how i love you to prove you that i love you so much. i cry for you is because i need you be my side . but i know for far distance love is very hard. so i try to be strong . when the the day come i will use my full 100% to give you as much as you want . you're the first , you're the prefect, you're the make me smile to the life everyday ..

But now i don't know why so suddenly why you're change it ??????????? just what you told me is you want focus on study that don't want any relationship and 3 years will come back to me ??is that give me hope or just a joke? i still remember i gave your our photo memories and you still drawing a warm heart in my hand ... i can feel you're still love me .. but it just now can be friend ...i know that . i just want to prove it is how i love you and waiting you so so much . after 5 weeks you have already new boyfriend .. you know that the promise break up is for me totally is so misery ... i was told myself why you have to do this for me .? i mean that we had already promise is can't be hold it ?? why??? i very deep hurt for myself ... just tell my why ?? is that promise you just make a joke for me then you go with another boy already ? you want bad ending for me .. not you ... i just totally hurt.. i can feel my life just blackout all the day... everyday no eat . sleep keep cry and considering hurt myself ...

Just in mind i want to hate you but.. it was totally i can't do it .. it too much love you .. God told us Love is forgiveness.. i think i want forgive myself or you ?? i just totally upset. i not that to hate you ... is just pity you .. i think you have a couple life with your new boyfriend . me ? just get to self fall down and get up again and again.. i wish understand you can feel i still love you .. just you don't love me any more because one word for me .. No more kind of couple feel .. i know that suck reason but just one words can kill my whole life . i just want you understand break up must tell the truth .. don't make the end is just suck ending . you just left the pain to me not you ....

I still love you ....Janice ... wish you understand that .. and i wish you have a boyfriend and girlfriend please must very take care on her not just leave her alone .... really love you all