我不甘心。 i am reconciled

我不甘心，为什么我没有放掉这感情。
我不甘心，为什么我自己不能跟你同年？
我不甘心，为什么你可以这么容易放下，而我不能？
我不甘心，为什么你狠心欺骗我？
我不甘心，为什么我可以笨到我完全的相信你的话？
我不甘心，为什么你画心在我的手然后放在我的心？不久就跟人跑了。

我的心，已经恨自己为什会真的笨到这种地步？
宁愿自己傻，好让你开心。　
好让自己省钱。就可以带你去台湾和你一起。结果自己病倒了。你的微笑就是我的良药？我满足了。
我宁愿不开心的事别告诉你，不要让你但心。我的任务就是让你开心
我也会想在你的立场想，一路来都非常的支持你的跳舞的梦想。我不在你的身边好让你暂时的独立。过后你出来我会一心一意的照顾你～　

不过这些已经不在是承诺了。而是骗到我自己输给了你和自己。　
你开心了吧，我就好好尝这被骗和背叛的滋味了。　你也不需要伤心，你已经是赢家了～

哭吧。我这笨人～　

I reconciled ,Why i can't let it go for this our relationship ?
I reconciled, why i can't be same age with you ?
I reconciled,Why you can easily put down everything but i can't ?
I reconciled,why you so heartless lie to me ?
I reconciled,Why i am fool can trust you everything ?
I reconciled,why you draw a heart and put in my heart, then you just with another man  ?? the heart is not belong to me ? 

my hate myself why i can fool like shit ? 
i rather to make myself fool let you happy all the second .
save money ,can bring you go Taiwan together .in the end , sick come to me . you're smile is my cure , i very easy to satisfy .
I rather don't tell about my sadness , don't make you worry . that's the mission i promise myself let you happy .

i always think of your side . always support what you do to good for yourself . i just temporary not beside you is because let you more how to independent . after you come out . i will full of my heart to take care of you ... 

but those this wisher is becoming shattered already . i already lose ..
you're happy all the moment , i just been taste been lie and betray this moment . you not been able to sad. because you're already winner ..

just CRY bitch ..me ~